Let’s talk about self-depricating humor. I am a huge implementer of this in my life and I always forget how toxic it can be. Sometimes I use it to get positive attention and sometimes I can’t accept that I actually am beautiful and good at things so I force myself to believe that I’m not.
Don’t trick yourself into doubting your self worth. Employ mind over matter. Instead of tearing yourself down, build yourself up. This is something I really need to work on this year and I want to dedicate 2019 to pushing myself toward a life of self-love and appreciation. If I can’t be my biggest supporter, I will not achieve the success I hope to gain when I graduate from college.
Life is far too short to hate yourself. You can’t prosper and suck the marrow out of the bones of life if you aren’t willing to show yourself, especially your body, the love it deserves. If you have a problem, love yourself enough to fix it. If you think dropping a few pounds will make you feel better, find a way to become more active that will bring you joy. This doesn’t mean you can’t have a lazy day or pig out with your friends, but by loving your body in different ways, you can find the peace you need to love yourself the way you are meant to.
I was trying to take a cute selfie the other day in my super festive Snoopy Christmas pjs and I kept trying to controur my body in a way that would make me look thinner because I felt like my top made me look heavy. I wasn’t even thinking about what I was doing until I finally posted the picture and I was so frustrated with myself for putting so much focus on trying to make myself look thinner than I am. I need to stop trying to mold myself so I look what I think society thinks I should look like. I should love my body and work every look like the confident millenial I am.
Sometimes I look at this picture and the first thing I see is my arm and I feel so ashamed. I don’t think of the fact that I’m in a beautiful dress or that I’m spending the evening at a gala with the love of my life. I just see my arm and I assume that that’s the first thing everyone else will see. Not my smile, or my eyes, or my dress… My fat arm. There are a lot of things I wish I could change about my body and my arm “flub” is definitely towards the top of my list. But I need to remember that i can control things like this. First, I can control how I percieve my body and secondly, I can get active and take the necessary steps to get healthy and help myself become more comfortable with the parts of my body I feel the most insecure about.
Sometimes I see pictures of myself and I can’t believe that that’s the way people see me. But then I see how happy I am in pictures like this and I wonder why I would have negative thoughts about myself. It’s normal to be self-conscious but you have to remember that you are beautiful no matter what you look like. Don’t be your biggest critic. Be your biggest supporter.
I’d be lying if I said I was totally happy with how my body looks. This is a journey that I have been on for a long time and who knows when or if it will end. I haven’t been thin since elementary school and I always assumed that being bigger meant that I wasn’t beautiful and that I wasn’t capable of being happy with the way I look but I’m slowly learning how to love myself even when I feel down. I was hesitant to post this picture because I saw so many “flaws” with my body but that’s what makes me who I am.